Lotus Elementals

To say the last year has flown wouldn't be entirely accurate. There have been sections of it that have sped by at the speed of light and others which have felt interminable. There have been segments, weeks, which have felt like molasses in terms of progress, a term I wouldn't have freely chosen at those moments. I am officially at the halfway mark in the program, and discovered about halfway through last term that there is, in fact, a wall of sorts into which some of us crash, almost audibly, some more quietly, but crashing there is. Fortunately said crash did no lasting damage, and for me the realization of having completed nearly half of the necessary coursework buoyed sufficiently for me navigate the remainder of the term and exit without too many additional (or at least visible) scars. New term has begun, and with it comes the daily pressure to study, always, and stay focused, always, and expand the consciousness while creating a strong foundation with this medicine....

There's a hush that comes over the school during this week, a hush caused by students collectively gathering their wits, reviewing until they're punch drunk, and then regurgitating, often onto paper, their knowledge of the myriad subjects we're expected to master. Honestly, I think the silence is simply due to all of us conserving what little energy we have and focusing that on writing down answers and not wanting to waste any effort on speaking even a little. It's intense, and we're in the midst. The cool thing? By this time next week we'll all feel lighter (mostly because we dumped volumes of information, which must certainly weigh something , out of our heads). And we'll all be in dire need of a brief respite from the intensity of our program. I am taking a break clinic, which means no break, but a lovely transition from observing to treating, with a supervisor whose manner and approach resonate nicely with my own. Ok, now back to the books.